2021 was a year of change for me. My family and I moved to Sweden and at that moment I was just finishing my studies at the school of conceptual and art photography Myph. After that I tried myself in a completely new style for me and shot the project «Between the Lives», looking deeply inside myself, my feelings and sensations, putting it for everyone to see.
Scandinavia. Where a true Swede gets high even from
the fact that he just rides a bicycle, where the upbringing of a child is treated
as carefully as a thin, glass Christmas tree toy. And where people get scared
of you, an emigrant, fearing that you could break their well-established, happy
and safe life. This is a difficult period when you're trying to get yourself
into the well-being, that has been created and maintained at the highest level
for decades. You start to break your spirit. You learn to trust people again,
as you did, before the first life lesson. Сonstantly fighting for respect and
dignity for yourself, your children and relatives all your entire adult life in
your home country, you get the imprint of this pain, which is easily read by
the eyes, no matter how hard you smile. And when you go out, you put on the
mask of a happy local. But as darkness fell, when no one's looking, you relive
it all over again. Memories, endlessly scrolling through the head, cannot be
deduced as a boring tattoo by superimposing a bright and colorful pattern on
top. And you're left alone with the past, which can't yet let you go. And with
the present, where you're still a stranger.
Nominee in the 8th Fine Art Photography Awards in Professional Fine Art category 2022
